Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Ringing in my ears...

I thought we were past all the ringing of bells, or rather the ringing of phones.... but life doesn't really seem to work that way does it? We seem to think if we can just get over this one little hurtle, life will even out, slow down and somehow get easier, right? .... Not so much...

It was another busy day of activities for the kids. I was just getting home and sat down to catch up on things when I noticed the blinking on the phone.

 We had a message.

The message was from a lady we know thru church. She had heard that we might be looking for a house to rent (our current landlord had mentioned maybe needing to sell) and wondered if we would be interested in checking out her parents' house. They had been moved into an assisted living facility and their house was sitting empty and would be in need of renters soon. My husband walked in in the middle of me calling her back and it was decided we would be meeting up in less than an hour to check it out. Talk about a leap of faith... we loved where we were living and didn't want to move but we also knew there wasn't much out there in the way of rentals for our area and definitely not a house that was in our budget AND allowed for us to bring along our close to zoo collection of critters....We had been living month to month just waiting for our landlord to give the word (or a ring!) that we needed to be out....It's in moments like these that we feel God the most. It's as if He is trying to steer us in whispers not yells. He is giving us the puzzle pieces but it's up to us to put them together and see the big picture, or at least a part of it. He was waiting for us to take the bait, to step out on faith... and we did.



Sometimes you never get to see the intricate details of God's plan. You might see his gentle course but not be able to see the why of something. We, however, saw the outcome of our stepping out on faith a mere week later... when our current landlord came to tell us he was putting the house on the market. God is so good to have this house lined up for us before we even thought we needed it.



It was decided that we would get all our ducks in a row ( no pun intended), which included a trip for me and the kids to see my parents and grandparents (Grammy and Papa) back east, while the lady from church got her parents' things moved out and the house ready for renters.

 It had been over a year already since we were back to visit, and my Gram has been suffering from dementia and strokes. The thought of a move ahead of me, on top of being tired from our other recent life changes was just too much to think of putting off a visit any longer. So the kids and I got on a plane and dear hubby stayed home to work and care for all our critters.



I had no idea that that trip too was in God's plan. Looking back, maybe he forced his hand in speeding up our move just so I would have to jump at the chance to go back "home"...before life would change more than I could ever imagine and my idea of going home would be forever altered...





July 29th I woke up to my home phone ringing....in a bleary state, we couldn't get to it in time. Then my cell started ringing and I knew that something was big....I heard my mom's voice on the other end and she was quickly telling me that my Gram was in the hospital again. I was listening as intently as I could being half asleep and yet wide awake with emotions but she might as well have been talking in Chinese. So much of that conversation  I couldn't retain when my husband asked me for details only moments later. In a nut shell, we were losing her....I was losing my Gram, my idol, one of my lifelong best friends, one of my biggest supporters, the most amazing person and true Proverbs 31 woman.... A huge part of my heart was leaving this world and there was nothing I could do.

 Times like this aren't moments you like to think about if you don't have to. It's not as if you can prepare or practice how you will feel or react. It just happens. Only we had been thru this kind of phone call a number of times in the last year or so, so I guess my mind did have it stored away somewhere of what I would have done differently if given a do-over with other loved ones we have lost. I had it in me enough to ask my mom to take the phone to her. I could hear my gram breathing, I was talking so loud in hopes that she would hear me saying "I love you" over and over...I was always ok to hang up from our conversations in the past, even the many times when she would forget how to hold the phone up for herself, if I knew that she at least heard me say I loved her....

I'd like to think she heard me one last time...

My Gram passed away a few hours later in the company of my mom, my papa/ her husband of 66 years and her pastor.

My life will never be the same as I know will be the same for anyone that ever met her, but we are trying to just keep moving. I'm working on another post to share here and will update this entry when I do ...


Friday, March 6, 2015

If memories ring true

They have the saying "saved by the bell" but is all that ringing really saving us from something or just inching us along in God's big plan for our lives....



I've been thinking about it a lot lately, not so much as a bell ringing but more like the phone... all the phone calls that we answer in life that hold an unknown outcome in that split second of rushing to answer it. Most of us don't give it a second thought. The phone rings and we answer but really we never know when a simple thing like answering the phone is going to change life as we know it....

The last year or two has been full of ringing phones that ended up altering our lives and the outcomes have left me at a loss for words to write on this little blog you are reading. It's not that I haven't had a lot to say. If anything I have had so much to say that I haven't been able to simplify my thoughts to get them out in word form. And the more time that passes, the harder it is to come back. I didn't even really think anyone would miss my ramblings but I got a card in the mail (yes that ancient for of communication that is being lost in our society!) that proved me wrong. It was a from a friend that isn't on facebook (good for her! lol) and she was writing to say that she missed my blog writings. I had left her wondering if I'd ever learned how to use my loom, had our fairy garden grown and  how our animals were doing, including our newest addition Rudy ( I'll fill you in on him soon I promise!) . It got me to thinking of all the blogs that I have followed thru the years and the people behind them that I felt became like friends... only to have them leave their blogs sometimes unannounced and I've missed them....

And so, I sit here wanting to catch you up on all the phone ringing that has changed our course in the last year or so. I really don't mean to remember things in such detail but my mind just does it. It is something I am trying to let go of so maybe in writing it down I will be able to. Through everything we've had in the last year, I just hope that my actions have in some way been able to be a testimony to God. I don't know how I'd have gotten thru any of this without Him...



Really it began over two years ago when I was driving my girls to book club. My cell phone rang and I saw that it was my half- brother ( I don't like labels but to help explain family dynamics I will use them just this once.) My biological father had collapsed at work and was at the hospital. I remember the exact part of that road because I won't use my cell while I am driving so I had to pull over to talk. That call was a big one...

Then came the call that we had to move... in 6 weeks... with 48 eggs in the incubator and a small hobby farm to relocate. God was SO good in that whole situation. He had everything worked out in such detail...

There were numerous ringing of phones in regards to my father, like the one when he called to tell me it was brain cancer, and the one asking for prayers as he was having unexpected brain surgery while we were on the road traveling a few months later....

There was the call that we had lost my Great Aunt Sis and unfortunately so many more calls about family friends that are no longer with us either...

The biggest collection of phone calls started last spring... It was my daughter's 10th birthday and it was a beautiful sunny day. Yet again, I got a call from my brother and my father had had a stroke....

A month later, I was sitting at my sewing machine working on puppets having a wonderfully quiet morning to myself as the girls were still in bed. The phone rang and my life would never be the same. My aunt called to tell me that my father had a brain bleed and that this was it.... The phone call I got later in the day from my brother only confirmed it... my father was gone...

This is when I think I lost the words to write. I've been keeping my thoughts and feelings mostly to myself... well, myself and God. There's been a lot to talk about, just him and I. I wasn't sure how to move on in this blog space. I couldn't just pretend that this didn't happen but I didn't know how to explain it either. My thoughts and feelings run so much deeper than I could ever explain and the family history is anything but cut and dry. :)

Last fall came the call that our 16 year old niece was in car accident and that her life was ended all too soon and then just over a month ago we got the call that we were needed in KS for my husband's grandfather... we made it in time to spend his last two days on earth with him before his passing too...

I'm not telling you all of this to ask for pity, but I have to acknowledge the events of the last year so that I can somehow leave them there... in the past... so I can move on to the new plans God has for us.



 I need to move on...the last year has been so full of grief and loss and I don't want to focus on that any more. Today is another beautiful day that God has given us and I want to live it to its fullest and in a way that gives Him all the  glory.... to live in a way that pays tribute to all the people we have loved that aren't here any more.... to live in a way that that would make all those people proud... to give thanks everyday for those amazing people and for the memories we have of them....



Today is a new day and I am glad...



Thursday, December 11, 2014

Extended sale!

We really enjoy these dvds. If you would like to try them, now is the time! They've just extended their sale for 2 more days!! 

Friday, February 14, 2014

{This Moment}

Following Soule Mama's idea...

                                                                      A Friday ritual. 
                                 A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week.
            A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.





Friday, February 7, 2014

This Moment

Soule Mama's inspiration... 




{this moment}

A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. 

Mom's Night Out movie review


It's not very often that we go to the movies in our house. It's just not something that we put very high on the priority list and I certainly don't get to do it very often with just friends....in fact, its not really very often that I do ANYTHING with just girlfriends. It's not that I don't have them (although I am known to have a pitty party for myself occasionally and think that I am going solo on this insanity ride of motherhood) because when I really think about it... I have some great ones. My problem is the location of my closest friends ranges from sea to shining sea and some are so far away we have continents between us. And lets face it, as moms we just don't take the time for ourselves. We do so much for everyone else. Between the laundry and dishes, and making sure there are lunches packed and carpets vacuumed, food made for church potlucks and tutu's made for dance recitals... we don't have much more to give... especially to ourselves...



When I got the email for a chance to go to an early screening of the new movie "Mom's Night Out "coming to theaters May 9th, I didn't even care that it was on a week night or that we had to drive over an hour north (something I usually avoid like the plague). I called the first friend I could think of and we made it a plan to have our own MNO!  Woo hoo! :)

It's amazing how much we all need a bit of time to ourselves... and I'm not talking about those stolen moments of hiding in your bedroom reading a book for a few moments out of the day (yes I am guilty of this) or the few second of quiet you *should* get behind the closed door of a bathroom (usually with people knocking at the door or little fingers coming in under it!)... I'm talking about getting to have adult conversations, Relaxing in a chair without someone climbing on you. Eating a meal that you don't have to cut up for someone else or share with a picky eater.



Sitting there in the dark theater with my good friend and a big thing of nachos (cause lets face it, I had dinner ready for the family but ran out of time to feed myself!) the movie began to roll and I felt like it was playing a view of my life... only with the charming actress Sara Drew playing me! I mean it, it was kind of scary the things that were like me, right down to her sitting at the computer to write her blog and finding she suddenly had nothing to say....


This movie was a breath of fresh air to say the least! I honestly went into it thinking that this movie would be your stereo typical movie about moms gone wild with no accountability and how they down play the importance of motherhood and have no care for being a Godly wife or mother.... but that couldn't have been farther from what this movie was about!




This movie was real... it was honest... it was so stinking funny  (mostly because we could all relate to what they were saying/doing) 
and this moving was motivational.

 I personally walked out of that theater a better person and ready to be a better mom when my kids get up in the morning.


How many times can you say that about a movie? This movie was about moms, but it showed the side of the dads too and would be a great date night movie, family movie for all ages (my 6 and 9 year olds would love it!) and of course... MOMS!!! It had the undertones of a great Christian film without the preachiness that one might expect. It told it like it is and inspired me to want to be a better mom not just for my kids but for me. It reminded me that even tho I feel somedays like the worst mother ever, and sometimes I feel like I am getting nothing done and failing at everything.... I am enough... and that God put my girls with just the right mom for them....I think we all need that reminder sometimes. And we all need a Mom's night out from time to time to make us appreciate what we have and who we are...




So go see Mom's Night Out on May 9th! The story is great and the cast is amazing!! Make it a priority to go on opening weekend and tell our entertainment industry that we need more movies like these!! There are so many ways to support Christian entertainment and to be an example in a world that will try to tell you that you aren't enough and that you have to be everything to everyone. There's only one that can be that and He loves you just the way you are!

" Life isn't about a parking space. 

Its NOT about God taking 
all our problems away
and giving us a PERFECT life. 

Its about finding 
Meaning & JOY & PURPOSE.

In this- in the crazy-in the chaos"

-Moms' Night Out


Thursday, February 6, 2014

Seahawk love

Considering I am from around Pittsburgh, its just a given that I am a die hard Steelers fan, but one can't help but get caught up in this overwelming feeling of Seattle pride for the Seahawks after their Superbowl win on Sunday. Just to log on to facebook or walk thru the grocery store in our sleepy little town you can't go far without hearing people talk about it. It really is infectious!

The last few weeks have been busy for me too as I have been sewing up a number of these fuzzy guys in time for the big game!



To celebrate the Seahawks big win, I am offering 10% on all purchases made today and tomorrow (Friday, Feb 6th) in my shop !  Just use the word "SEAHAWK" as the coupon code at checkout! :)

And not to worry, I have the Pittsburgh fans covered too! :) There's always next year! 
Be sure to check out my other new creations!